I can understand, and relate, to those initial flashback doubts about "what if??"...however, I think that if you're still having them a couple of years after leaving the org, then you haven't properly slayed all your demons and beaten the indoctation with new education.
But they can not be right, by now too much came up that shows them to be fake, Ray Franz's book has got enough in it to demolish that notion, what we have here is a bunch of rapacious individuals lusting for power and are above all self interested, the Mexico Malawi contradiction, the occultic associations of Russell and Rutherford, the very unstable and erratic doctrines, it's a joke really.
I fully concur with Greendawn on this...it's all a joke to me now, the whole thing is bloody absurd. Thus the reason why I have very little understanding for those people I once considered intelligent and looked up to in the org who chose to remain there.
I think it's really important that all those who make a conscious decision to leave the WT get to the point where they can unequivocally say that the WT org is a manmade publishing company full of double standards, driven by deluded power craving men, founded on contradicting polices, who use failed and failing prophecies to draw in desperate people, and use control and fear tactics to keep them and their purses coming back for more...