Yes. I accepted that no one or thing has control over life. I must look to myself for strength.What went into you having this realization? What external forces allowed or influenced it?
WRONG/FALSE/UNPROVABLE ANSWERS!
I had no choice but to stop looking for answers and realize that things happen for no reason to whomever. Deep thought alone influenced this.
as a new parent at the time it removed the fear of dying at armageddon
With me as well.