Poodle, I know how you feel. I felt sick at the thought of going to a church. The perception of the oily preacher with his hand out for money kept flashing through my mind. Also, I didn't know what to expect. Would it be more of the same, unloving, judgmental people like the dubs or would it be different bad or different good? The gb planted so much fear in me over the years that I was shaking the first time I went to church. I was invited by a co-worker, I told her I'm not interested in any organized religion because I had a bad experience (understatement of the year!) She said, try it just once. It was a Calvary Chapel and I loved it! Fast forward 2 years later and the Christian freedom is unlike anything I've ever experienced. It's the freedom to do good and enjoy every second of life. There is no dogmatic, we're right, every one else will die at Armg. I encourage you to listen to Christian music - like Chris Tomlin, Michael W. Smith, Third Day and Casting Crowns - you'll love it. If you have kids they will enjoy Calvary Chapel too, the children's ministries are wonderful for them. Sorry to ramble, but I love it. I actually want to go instead of forcing myself like I did at the kg hall. Obviously, it's your choice and you have to be comfortable regardless of what church it is. Keep praying and God Bless - V Sky