welcome to the board " where it is not only o.k. to ask questions, but encouraged." these questions should be asked by all who even think about getting involved with Jehovah's Witnesses, before dedicating their life to the WTB&TS. notice i said a society, not God. by being baptized in this religion, you are not comitting to serving God & Christ, but to following the man made rules of a money making business, where you are not allowed to question their teachings, past or present, unless you want to be viewed as "weak in faith."
it is not your fault that you were not allowed to see things as they really are. take the time now to question all that you have been taught,as the bible encourages, do research,find what it is that makes your life fulfilling & stick with it. regardless of what someone says you need, only you know what makes your life what it should be.
just my personal opinion, of coarse.
magoo