by minimus 34 Replies latest jw friends
I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I don't understand why I'm here, what will be the end of me, if there is a God or creator and what he thinks of me or even cares about the earth or humans. Am I just another animal or do we have a special place in the universe? I feel OK about myself but know myself is about over. Don't have much to look forward to, it's all downhill from here.
Ken P.
I tend to procrastinate alot...so I often put off thinking about what I think about myself
I think that I am more honorable and honest than a lot of female co-workers who are such terrible back-stabbing gossipers that a person can't trust.
Sometimes I wonder if that's due to my JW background?
Good question. Tough one to answer. We all like to think we're good and okay with ourselves.
I have some things to work on and work out, but for the most part, I think I'm an okay guy. I have some bad habits and some things that I could improve on, who doesn't, but I seem to be well-liked by workmates and new non-JW acquaintances.
The most telling thing about how I changed after fading was when I started to associate with some workmates after work. For years I really didn't do much with them, them being worldly and all. But after I started hanging out with them some (and had a couple of the single secretarys started to flirt with me, hubba hubba) one person said to me (paraphrased), "you seem to have chilled out some. You used to be so uptight. Now you're relaxed and easy going. I'm glad to see you have some fun." I was surprised because I hadn't realized that I had changed any, but it was noticed by others.
I tend to procrastinate alot...so I often put off thinking about what I think about myself
Sounds good to me, mrsj!
Okay, I'll try. Lets see, I'm less depressed and less guilty-feeling all the time....so that's good. However, I'm kind of a hermit because I don't trust myself very much. Guess I'm pretty cowardly.
I too am a self imposed hermit. Kinda looking at the rest of the world through a window and a computer monitor. I feel as though there are so many fissures within me that one more blow would just shatter my whole being.
As time passes I will get stronger I am certain.
cab
I really like myself, for the most part. I would love to have a body, about 50 pounds lighter, and maybe a different nose. Personality wise, I'm good. Lots of friends and close family too.
Now that I am not trying to please JWs, I am happier, feel less guilt and shame, Have true friends, less stress and anxiety, less fear. I think it will just keep getting better!
I think I have potential, but I am wasting lots and lots of time, and don't know why.
I think I have "amotivational syndrome" (but you're only supposed to get that after long-term pot-smoking, and that's just not me!)
I've got to get out of the house....
See ya'll.
I'm sure i need alot of self-improvement!! Since no one is perfect, i suspect just about everyone else does as well! I am currently working on one aspect of my life which does affect the way i behave and think about myself!!
