A song for you

I-follow-the-narrow-path

I wrote the following song... I thought it explained how, maybe, people felt when they were leaving the ORG.

Here it is and I hope you like it.

All I have is me

Verse One:

Will you forgive me? Do you even think that I deserve

Such torture surrounding me, such torturing killing me slowly

And I can not be the only one, who feels trapped inside this world

And I can not be the only one, who feels deserted ever more

I will not break, I will not cry, but do you now how I feel inside?

Chorus:

It’s consuming me , it kills me as I sleep.

Tearing my own thoughts and all I have now is me.

I can not take this anymore, so the pain it shuts the door

Forbidden from my own imagination,

For why do you control me?

Verse Two:

Why can’t I just leave? Is it because I don’t want to be alone

If I leave right now… can I still go home?

I wanna hug you, but my thoughts keep me away

I wanna love you, but it is impossible this way.

And why are you so controlled? They have taken my only hope.

I just want to say, I just want to say

Chorus:

It’s consuming me, it kills me as I sleep

Tearing my own thoughts and all I have now is me

I can not take this anymore, so the pain it shuts the door

Forbidden from my own imagination

For why do you control me?

Verse Three:

Are you embarrassed? Knowing I have thought for myself

Are you embarrassed? Knowing that I have proved you wrong

Are you embarrassed? To admit I’ve been dying all along.

For why… do you deny… do you care… that I…am already dead

Do you even care what I have said?

It’s consuming me, it kills me as I sleep

Tearing my own thoughts and all I have now is… me.

very good actually, well done. his though, is how i felt.
-------------------------------- Got these people in my face that say,
for this to go away,
i've got to be in the truth,
and then i'll get saved,
but why should i be a slave,
sick of hearing,
the way i live today,
will end up with my death,
though i only get stuff off'a my chest,
in jest,
they just won't let it rest,
keep saying their on my team,
till i speak then they leave,
dunno what i've done,
everything i've seen makes me unique,
shouldn't judge on what i don't believe,
i can't forget what so called christians have said,
karl you've made your bed now lie,
i'd rather die,
than be your friend,
this is the end,
Armageddon round the bend,
dont be suprised if you lose your life,
knowing you was nice,
all these cults are like a vice, cold as ice,
choke you till your dull in the eyes,
but i managed to survive, used to see in green vision,
everything looked the same till i left and now its come clear again, understand i've been through pain,
angry so me leaving won't surfice,
sick of living in fear,
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doesn't read like a poem cos i wrote that over a rap beat

fullofdoubtnow

Elizabeth, that is really good. Here's a song that I heard just as I was leaving the org. I didn't write it, it's by the Alan Parsons Project, and it's called Nothing Left To Lose. It kind of summed up how I was feeling at the time:

Nothings good the news is bad

The heat goes on and it drives you mad

Scornful thoughts that fly your way

You should turn away cause there's nothing left to say

You gave the best you had to give

You only have one life to live

You fought so hard you were a slave

After all you gave there was nothing left to save

You've got nothing left to lose(no you've got nothing left to lose)

No youv'e got nothing left to lose (who'd want to be standing in your shoes)

You read the book, you turn the page

You changed your life in a thousand ways

The dawn of reason lights your eyes

With the key you realise to the kingdom of the wise

Youv'e got nothing left to lose etc

Nothing ventured, nothing gained

No more lingering doubt remained

Nothing sacred or profane

Everything to gain

Cause you've got nothing left to lose

those are all good!

I still like "The Goof with the Troof" (even my youngest laughed when I read it to him)

A song for you

I-follow-the-narrow-path

anewme

KW13

fullofdoubtnow

misspeaches

nomoreTRUTHplz

Stephanus

KW13

Thegoodgirl

sass_my_frass

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