i haven't gotten antidepressants for a couple of reasons 1.pride- i feel that taken antidepressants is admission that I'm weak
We are all fragile, to some greater or lesser degree. We being human are all subject to various fears, concerns and things that cause us disturbance in our lives. Even those who may appear strong on the outside, there exist a chink in his armour, somewhere. From the Pope, to Prince to the President. We are all merely skeletons waiting our arrival.
2. fear- i don't have health insurance and I'm afraid of the financial repercussions of prescriptions and mental health care visits.
Those who are suffering can often acquire help thru no cost, especially as it exist in the states. I nursed my wife thru a 3 year depression without the benefit of health coverage. The institutions who serve the community in that capacity feel they would rather take a financial loss as opposed to having the problem come up somewhere else. There are usually spaces available where they will see you, provide assistance with meds, and can turn you on to a world of social services thru case managers in the field and social workers in the system.
3. I'm also afraid that by taking the medication it will have no affect (wasted money) or that i will be worse off after taking them than if i had done nothing.
Meds are often given to those who can not afford them, even if thru taking the samples that they have on hand for just such emergencies. There are a wealth of ways in order to see that your needs are considered. Drug companies are getting into the business of seeing to the needs of those who can not afford medications thru various gift programs.
Lastly, if it is that you're experiencing severe bouts of depression, medications such as anti-depressants can a positive impact on your emotional well being. For some of us, its the only way out, for others there are various other avenues that you can pursue. Anti-depressants aren't a cure all but they do work. They change the chemical composition in your brain, the brain that may not be sending all of the complex natural substances that keep us on an even keel.
Good Luck from someone who's been on both sides of the street.