It hurts

by Joe Grundy 27 Replies latest jw friends

  • Joe Grundy
    Joe Grundy

    It happened again
    I never thought it would
    My life got its sparkle back
    It never felt so good.

    I'd built up the walls
    Thick and strong and high
    I'd put on the armour
    I knew I could get by.

    But she got through with just a look
    A few words and a smile
    My heart was melted, open wide
    I relaxed for a while.

    The joy of love came flooding in
    Old feelings came alive
    I knew that I could live again
    More than just survive.

    But Fate is a twisted bitch
    And knows just when to bite -
    When things are going pretty well
    When things are going right.

    My lady has to go away
    Time to close our hearts
    Not my doing and not hers
    Life forces us apart.

    We come from different worlds
    One day we'll meet again?
    I don't know, can only hope
    She'll be free to love me then.

    'My head is bloody but unbowed'
    Someone better than me said
    My heart is broken, full of pain
    So I'll hold up my head.

    I'll smile and you won't see the hurt
    That cuts me deep inside
    I'm just a few more specks of dust
    On the endless cosmic ride.

  • Cabin in the woods
    Cabin in the woods

    That is just a heart wrenching poem. You are in such pain but just hang in there. There are many out there that care and will work your way through this. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Mary

  • misspeaches
    misspeaches

    Hi Joe...
    Your poem rings so true to me... I remember feeling like that so many times myself.


    I'll smile and you won't see the hurt
    That cuts me deep inside
    I'm just a few more specks of dust


    That hits the hardest....

  • Scully
    Scully

    That was beautiful and haunting.

    Have you given it to her? I'm sure she would treasure it.

    Thinking of you....

  • Joe Grundy
    Joe Grundy

    I apologise for posting this. It seems (now the tears have stopped) to have been incredibly self-indulgent.

    I don't even really have the right to post on this board, let alone post this sort of stuff. I'm not, never have been, etc., nor have I suferred through it. Just an interested outsider, is all. But it says a lot for the folks here that when in a low moment I needed to share something, you were the people I thought of.

    Normal service (tough macho ex cop) will be resumed as soon as possible.

    And thanks for your comments.

  • troubled mind
    troubled mind

    (((((Joe))))))

  • LDH
    LDH
    I don't even really have the right to post on this board, let alone post this sort of stuff.

    WRONG WRONG WRONG.

    You are a valuable insight, please don't leave. It is human to reach out for comfort. I'm sorry, really. You are such a great guy, that comes across in all of your posts....

    Lisa

  • Robdar
    Robdar

  • JamesThomas
    JamesThomas

    Dear Joe,

    A beautiful and moving poem; thank you for sharing it with us.

    May I suggest you stop building walls, and instead look deeply and diligently within and investigate into what it is you are protecting.

    Perhaps it is time to really discover who/what you are; time to see through everything the busy little mind believes and has constructed "you" to be; time to uncover and expose the pristine beauty at your core which is Love, itself.

    j

  • Joe Grundy
    Joe Grundy

    Thanks for the comments. They meant a lot. Spoke to a couple of people this evening (met through JWD). One is an established and dear friend, one for the first time (a lovely lady).

    Already feeling better. Never doubt the power of JWD!

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