After much trepidation I made a big decision. I'm not going to the DC this year. It's the first one I've ever missed (I think.) I feel kind of nervous and anxious because of the inevitable questions that will come up from my family if I talk to them in the next month or two, and the outcome if they realize how "spiritually weak" I am. I don't think they'll shun me. Frankly, they don't reach out to me much anyway, so if they keep their distance more because I'm 'weak' , I probably couldn't tell a difference. I guess the anxiety will subside as time passes and once I get past the confrontation and see what the consequences are.
I also felt a bit nervous about telling my daughter, but all she said was "you're bad." A few minutes later she arranged to go out with friends instead of going to the Sunday meeting. I'm such a bad example.