A close friend of ours passed away last week-only 41 years old- from cancer. It was truly the saddest funeral I have ever attended. His wife was a mess, and their two little boys were being so brave for her-it was absolutely heartbreaking.
Anyways, the minister giving the funeral service talked about how he is in a "better place" now, and it really started me thinking. I have lost both a parent and a child, and others who are close, and I always try to convince myself that there really is something after death. I want to think that they can maybe look down from somewhere and see what is going on in the life of my family and be happy for us. But deep, deep down in my heart, I know that I don't believe this. I suppose that this is due to being told all those years that you die, and that is all there is. I can't get past that-even after being out of the JW cult for over 20 years.
Just wondering if anyone else has this problem-the need to feel and believe that there is something more than just these few short years on this Earth...but being unable to grasp any type of belief and really, truly believe it in your heart.
LIG