In Plato's Phaedo a character supposed that in man's primordial pre-existence, there were three forms of human: Two men joined in one body, two women joined in one body, and a man and woman joined in one body. They were too powerful and Zeus punished them by seperating them each into two beings. And the existence we have now has been a chase and quest to find our other half, our soulmate, whichever gender that may be, even if our own.
am i normal?
by airwlk149 15 Replies latest social relationships
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Bridgette
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I'm so glad that you felt comfortable enough to reach out and share with us. I just want to add my thoughts and tell you again, this is perfectly normal--there's nothing wrong with what you're feeling.
My thoughts are somewhat like Teirce's. There is male and female (yin and yang) energies in all of us. We're just miniature blueprints of the universe, where you see the male and female energies. Sometimes these are compartmentalized or one is super dominant, sometimes, they are not. Does that make sense? In any case, Teirce is right, your soul mate is your soulmate. If yours happens to be a woman, and you are a woman, all it means is that you two were both born female in this incarnation. You two may have "played" many different roles in different incarnations.
My belief is that you have many soulmates, but only one twin flame (your "other half"). I have the good fortune to have met and married one of my soulmates. But there have been many of my soulmates who have been women in this incarnation. They are my very best friends in this world. At 18, you have a lot of exploring to do in this area. You are going to meet and get to know many people, the most important, of these people, being yourself--and if you let yourself you will love her (er, you :) more and more everyday.
I am so glad you're here! Keep us posted!
Love and Blessings,
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airwlk149
thank you to all who responded to my post. it helps to know that other people aren't as judgemental as many of the people i have come in contact with. i am getting used to the idea and the feelings of being with her.
thanks for reading! :)
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babyboo
Hey Air-I'm 17 too. I'll be 18 this month. I too was supposed to marry my boyfriend this year. But we broke up a couple months ago. Ii broke up with him b/c I knew I was spiritually weak and that it would work. He and I still talk and have a good friendship though. He and I also had premarital sex many times. I had asked him if he felt guilty about it and he said no. Now he's pioneering for the second yr-and still says it doesn't bother him. It hasn't ever bothered me, but I thought being a witness, u would want to be repentent and be forgivin. I haven't been to a meeting since April-but I did go to the Special Assembly. Anyways, I thought it was ammusing to see how some of my friends also "sinned" and admitted to the elders about it, as opposed to others who sinned and don't think twice about it.
About your friends....I've always had friends outside the truth. I've told them about my religion and have made it clear that if they ever want to learn more about it, they know they can always come to me. U can't change everyone-as far as your mom...all I can say is ur almost 18. You'll be able to make your own decisions. Do what u think is right.
Now, about the lesbian thing. Me and my best friend and our other friend (we're all JW's) "experimented" together. We mostly just kissed and did dumb stuff like lick honey or chocolate off of each others stomachs or tongue or something. We also showered together...I know, we were dumb, but it helped me figure out who I was and what I like. We were just curious about our sexuality. We didn't consider it wrong, and we were all around 16-18. So honey, don't worry about those feelings inside. They are perfectly normal. Everyone has them, whether they admit it or not. Do what u feel is right and comfortable. Just be safe.
U can e-mail me if u want. And don't think just b/c u got reinstated, doesn't mean u can't change your mind. U can do what ever u want to do. This time, put U first...everything else comes after. -
Teirce
That's a beautiful picture, babyboo. :)
I've never experimented with it myself. When I was about 9 or 10, in those days of total innocence, me and my younger brother touched tongues just to see what it was like. When I was pioneering, there was this guy who could do an amusingly perfect gay impression, then he'd touch the other guys in the cargroup affectionately. Caused curiously sentimental thoughts, interestingly, and shed some light on the un-Witnesslike possibility of accepting the idea that men could feel that way on a permanent basis. Mind-opening, and appreciated. Never went that way.. ;)
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Ray Skyhorse
Greetings Airwalk,
You are at a very difficult stage of life. Discovering who you are can be a riddle at times and understanding your sexuality can be downright confusing. Especially if you think you are experiencing bisexual feelings. I know, I've been there.
I'm a 37 year old bisexual male. I'm currently married and have an adorable 8 month old son. I've known that I've been bi since I was about 12 years old. What being bi means to me is about being sexually attracted to someone whom I am very emotionally close to and also find physically attractive. Usually, I am attracted only to women. When I see an attractive woman walking down the street, I look at her (I try not to stare.) I don't look at men that way. However, there have been a couple of times in my life where I became physically attracted to some of my male friends. I've had several very close male friends in my life, although I was only physically attracted to two of them. One of them, as it turns out, was bi and we were lovers for a couple of years. We were not out of the closet, but met discreetly on occassion. We kind of drifted away from each other as lovers when we developed relationships with other people. I currently am in a monogamous relationship with my wife. We love each other very much and she knows I am bi. We are married because we love each other and we wanted to raise children together. My former lover is still one of my best friends (yes, my wife knows about him.) I guess if I have any advice for you is that you should communicate to those you love and are attracted to about your feelings. I don't think it is wrong for you to have the sexual feelings you currently have. You've told your friend that that you find her physically attractive. That's wonderful that you two can talk about it.I'm going to make a generalization and say that I think it is a bit more difficult for young males to come to terms with their sexuality than young women. The reason I say this because there is this macho, bullshit attitude that is ingrained into boys which conflicts with their sexual feelings for other males. I think a lot of young men turn into violent homophobes because of this internal conflict. Females don't seem to have this problem.
By the way, I think you are very normal, though a bit confused and depressed. Since you are currently confused, I suggest you don't rush into a marriage with your (ex)boyfriend. I think Joelbear also had some great advice.
Peace,
Ray Skyhorse