I talked to my Dad yesterday , I had some thing to tell him about my sister's death, things I found out at the police station. Well, anyway......he told me that what keeps him going is knowing that he will see Ginger really soon.
He told me he didnt mean to preach to me but he loves me and wants us all to make it thru the Big A, so we can all be together as a family once again, including my Mom and my sister who have passed away.
He told me we have to live for our kids,,,,,and help them thru this old system. He told me is is so sure it is only a matter of short time that the end will be here.
He even told me how they read a letter to make evacuation plans on a book study level, if something should happen,,,,,including any kind of disaster. He didnt say they said it was Armegeddon evacuation plans but that is what he implied as well.
He didnt really cry as he talked to me, but I could hear the pain in his voice and him choaking back tears. It hurt. Even now, when I know what I know about JW, I will never go back, do not believe it to be true, etc. etc.it hurts me to hear him so helples, knowing that right now he can not make me go back.
I just remember when I was in and I dealt with disfellowshipped friends or family, how much I begged them to come back, how much it hurt that they left "the truth". I have told him I am not going back but he still practicially begs me to come back. I don't know , just venting because it hurts and I know we will never have the relationship we both want because of the JW religion.