As you all know my brother was buried yesterday.
He was 33......... He did this ..........17 years after his father commited suicide.
The funeral took place at the funeral home.......a witness elder did the funeral.....my brother is not a witness, but my mother is. He went into why we die and the hope of the ressurection. He read too many scriptures and I was told by many they just had to block him out. One girl said he was all over the bible and she just could not keep up. But he was kind and soft spoken, and said so many nice things about my brother.
My brother had tons of friends, and so many thought of him as a best friend. The women he knew were beautiful. He kept good company for sure.
I found myself comforted knowing that my brother was not suffering any longer. I did not think about the ressurection.. I can't worry about seeing him in the future when I am trying to come to grips with missing him.
When my brothers father died(my step-father) suicide was considered a death with no ressurection but the society has changed its view since then. I just don't want to take anyones opinion anymore..........it was very hurtful back then, when in fact they do not know, they can only speculate what happens after someone dies.
So for me, my brother is no longer alive, whether I see him or not is not my main concern. I think what is, is living life more fully, becoming more aware of .....more sensitive to what someone has to say or what they do not say.
The people from my mothers congo brought food and were very supportive to her.
I worked very hard to make the funeral a place where all who knew my brother could come.........from all religions........and all backgrounds. The main point is that the people that knew and loved him could be there. That what was foremost important to me. I will always feel good about that.
Beautiful sunflowers were on his casket.....he looked very peaceful. I will miss him dearly. I have wonderful memories of him and I am very sorry he felt the need to end his life. It was his decision and I respect it.
much love,
purps
I thank the people from the board for their support, phone calls, pm's, emails........etc. My support system is in transition, and never forget what a kind word can do for someone even coming from a stranger.
The music played was .....".You are the sunshine of my life" by Stevie Wonder
"I hope" by the Dixie Chicks ( not a dry eye in the place when this was played)
"When I Get Where I am Going" by Brad Paisley
Sunday morning, I heard the preacher say
Thou shall not kill
I don't wanna, hear nothin' else, about killin'
And that it's God's will
Cuz our children are watching us
They put their trust in us
They're gonna be like us
So let's learn from our history
And do it differently
CHORUS:
I hope
For more love, more joy and laughter
I hope
We'll have more than we'll ever need
I hope
We'll have more happy ever afters
I hope
We can all live more fearlessly
And we can lose all the pain and misery
I hope, I hope
Oh Rosie, her man he gets too rough
And all she can say, is he's a good man
He don't mean no harm
He was just brought up that way
But our children are watching us
They put their trust in us
They're gonna be like us
It's okay for us to disagree
We can work it out lovingly
For I hope
For more love, more joy and laughter
I hope
You'll have more than you'll ever need
I hope
You'll have more happy ever afters
I hope
And you can all live more fearlessly
And you can lose all your pain and misery
I hope, I hope
There must be a way to change what's going on
No, I don't have all the answers
I hope
For more love, more joy and laughter
I hope
you'll have more than you'll ever need
I hope
There'll be more happy ever afters
I hope
We can all live more fearlessly
And we can lose all the pain and misery
I hope, I hope
I hope
I hope
I hope
