Were you ever jealous of ones that left????

mama1119

I was. I always wondered how they had the balls to do it. And especially if they seemed happy with no remorse, and were able to celebrate holidays and live "normal" lives. I remember wishing, in my early twenties, that I had the strength to do that. I eventually did. I think that is why witnesses treat us so bad sometimes, they are actually jealous we had the strenth the free ourselves. Anyone agree or disagree??

IP_SEC

I always thought they were dogs going back to the vomit. Waiting for the world to chew them up and spit them out. ouch how wrong i was

DesertRat

Now that I think about it, I was somewhat envious of those giving experiences on assembly programs, when they talked about having once fallen into 'loose conduct' . Then in choked voices or with tears in their eyes they mentioned coming back & finding Jah's forgiveness...BORING!!!

DR

jwcol

Some married guy in his early 20s last year gave an experience at the DC about his porn problem. He went into great detail about how he was addicted and he could never go near a computer and would never own a computer again because he was sooooo addicted to porn. Everyone was like "what a complete idiot..."

But as far as how I felt when others left, it always bothered me that people had the attitude that it could never happen to them. They always used the opportunity to put the person down and make themselves feel like they were better than that.

katiekitten

Yes I think I was if im honest.

I always wanted them to come back so that they could be as miserable as I was.

mama1119

Exactly KatieKitten, I was envious they weren't miserable like us anymore, and how dare they because we were taught they were suppossed to be!!!

free2beme

I actually felt sorry for them and sad. Not so much because I thought they were all dead meat, which I did, but more because they seemed so lost and sad.

Purza

Nope. I always thought they were not going to find happiness. I remember when I was DF'd as a teenager I lost everything. I did not have one friend -- except my worldly boyfriend and he turned out to be a loser. I thought people who left -- left everything behind. Boy, was I brainwashed.

Until later I did it right -- I made friends and then I faded. Much happier now.

Purza

lisavegas420

I wasn't jealous, but I did wonder about the ones that only showed up at memorials. They ususally looked happy, rested and smiling. They never looked like some cracked-out whore like I thought they would.

I found it very confusing.

lisa

Athanasius

Not when I was a JW. Those who left before I did didn't come across as happy. Many had made a mess of their lives, and especially if they had been canned by the judicial committee, wanted to come back into the so called spiritual paradise. However, I was happy to fade beginning in 1984. Since then I've met many who like myself are are also happy to be out.

But today I'm still not jealous of anyone who leaves the Watchtower, only happy that now they enjoy their new freedom.

Were you ever jealous of ones that left????

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