Wow, Es............some very very intense stuff here................I have to tell you that when I read the title of this thread, I thought of Iyanla Vanzant's book I read years ago...........lol.........that was shortly after I ended my marriage and exited the Borg............what a mess I was then..........and, it feels good to look back and see how far I've come and how much I've grown.............I am now, going to go back to your 2nd thread, part TWO and read that. I started to read it, then went in search of part ONE..............thanks for sharing, you incredibly brave, deep woman, you!