Dearest Pubsinger... may you have peace.
My understanding from my Lord is this:
While I have been 'conceived', in other words, while the regenerative power of my Father, holy spirit, has 'fertilized' the seed of the woman that is hidden in my 'earthen vessel', it is when I put OFF that 'vessel' that I am 'born'... again. "It is sown in corruption; it is raised up in INcorruption."
Because I am still in the flesh, then, the 'befouled garment', and have not yet received a 'white robe'... the SPIRIT body... I have not yet been 'born'. I am granted to 'go in and out' of the Holy and Most Holy of my Father's 'temple', to go before His throne and the throne of my Lord, where I have been many times, due to 'righteousness' being 'imputed' to me, by means of holy spirit, through Christ. I have not, however, been granted RESIDENCY in that kingdom... yet.
You see, although we can, through Christ, entered in before God, we can enter in... the TEMPLE. However, because flesh, with its blood, cannot enter into the KINGDOM... it is not until we have put off the flesh, and put ON the spirit... permanently... that such 'entry' is granted. I can only enter temporarily, and then only before the person of God. I can go nowhere else... in that kingdom. Yet.
I hope this explains what I understand to be true. As for whether I am 'serious or just a wind up'... I can tell you in all sincerity, that I am quite serious. Others, however, will, of course, tell you different. As they would me, about you. May I suggest then, if you are 'lacking in wisdom' on this matter, that you simply ask the Father, through the Son? I see no reason why He would not answer you. And all YOU need do is put faith in the answer.
I bid you peace, and I am,
YOUR servant and a slave of Christ,
SJ