Eyeslice, not having the guilt associated with not doing a damn thing means a lot to me! I don't have to explain to anyone (who is not my spouse or mother or something of that nature) why I'm just enjoying sitting here at the computer playing word games, writing responses to apostates on the web, looking at R-rated movies, looking at Disney movies, wearing what I want to wear, not reading the Watchtower, not going to the meetings, and on and on.
It's better. It would of been a lot better if I had a done this in my twenties. (Stopping the mind control.)