I pray to you, O God who is not. I pray into the silence most dreadful that you would speak, O unseen Lord of Light. How often have the children of humanity hurled their hopes into your vast and terrible emptiness, longing only to hear something, even the echo of their loneliness? The children of Poverty, Poverty so palpably real, beg at your door. O vain hope of love, they cry to you, who they call Love, they, the children hated for their strange and unnatural longings, for their lovers either too foreign or too similar. How appropriate that you, O Void, create division, that you who are empty create the empty space between Good and Evil, between faiths and tongues and nations. Would that you were, O you who are not. Would that you could tell me the meaning that justifies all the inexcusable deeds done in your holy name. Even if this small thing lies beyond the impotent power of your omnipotence, you could at least, O ideal before whom reality shatters, you could at least announce your non-existence. Then, O fabled Prince of Peace, there could be peace. But until that day comes, that day of cleansing fire and expiation, we will live in your hell and consume ourselves in the shuddering fevers of your holy wars. Raise up a prophet, O God, to announce your non-will, to tell forth the tidings of your absence. Lo! He comes on a white horse. In his right hand, he holds a rod for breaking. May he shatter the empty idols I have fashioned after your likeness, the holy words and sacred signs that mark out the shape of the shadow of my dreams. May I be strong enough, Lord, to not feel I need your strength. But I will say of your prophet, “Here is my God, O children of the free. My God has come to give me freedom from the lies of my forefathers.” The rod for smashing will be the holy symbol of righteous judgment. And you will laugh. You will laugh in your empty, hollow way. The joke of course is that I don’t exist either. Just as when I reach for you I find nothing but emptiness heavier than stone, when I look for myself I find merely the play of shadows and light on the surface of consciousness. If there is any content to the names and forms I ascribe to you in moments of rapture and anguish, perhaps you, O God who is not, emerge somehow, like Venus, from the frothing, creative chaos of what is.