Are you there? Are you doing this because you hate me? I know I'm not the best person you've ever created so are you doing this to her because you are angry at me? Why are you so cruel? Why have you hurt someone who believes in you the way she does? Why?
You must know she is the love of my life, I fell in love with her the moment I saw her at the hospital, she was so tiny and beautiful and I knew that I would always take care of her. I taught her how to walk, my name was her first word, I taught her how to love basketball, I walked her to class her first day of middle school, I sat with her when she had surgery.
I thought the worse was over, and now you do this? How could you! I know what you must be thinking "oh it's not that bad, it could be worse", sure you could have struck her with cancer, but I've been thinking, cancer can be cured, sure it's painful and many don't make it but it can be cured, this can't. So, I wake up each morning feeling this sadness wash over me, because I mourn what you have taken away from her and from me.
She will never be "normal", I will never be able to take her to a Laker game at night because she will be too tired, if something goes wrong she will never be able to have children, she can't even go outside and feel the the sun in her face because she could get ill.
My heart aches, I mean it really hurts to the point where I can't breathe, I am asking you if you are there please make it all go away, leave her alone. Take anything you want from me, take my friends my health, take away my ability to have children, strike me dead right NOW because none of these things matter if she is not okay. Do it, kill me now and return her health to her, just take her pain away.
Lola