All of the sudden, I feel patriotic. For the first time in my life.
And it isn’t ‘fake’ patriotisim, like some people have said. They say because I didn’t fly the flag before Sept 11, and I do now, that somehow it isn’t real. No. What I feel now is real. I just didn’t feel it on Sept 10.
I feel very American all of the sudden. My home has been attacked. My home. My country. I was proud of the President who I didn’t vote for when he gave his speech. I suddenly feel bad about all the pissing and moaning I have done over the years about American politics, American education, and American anything. Now I just wish everything was like it was ‘Before.’
I am amazed. I have never felt this way. These are new feelings for me. These feelings are coming from my heart, and then I see them reflected on the TV and in others on the street, not the other way around.. This makes me feel even MORE a part of America. This is the first time I heard a Presidential speech that I agreed with! The first time. This is also the first time I didn’t think the President, any President, looked fake.
And strangely I am feeling ashamed of America’s ‘stuff’ all of the sudden, too. All of the sunglasses and fancy cars and Jennifer Aniston haircuts. I don’t even know what these feelings have to do with any of what has happened, but I know they do.
So all of the sudden I have an American flag. And all of the sudden I am behind a President. And all of the sudden I don’t take America for granted anymore. All of the sudden, I am patriotic.
I think I will always question the system, the politicians, the laws, the unfairness. But now, underneath it all, is a love of country that I don’t think will ever go away.
Thanks for listening.
--LisaBObeesa