Dear Friends,
I have just finished reading The Wanderer's post on suicide. The heart-rending stories and subsequent comfort offered is an overwhelming testament to our survival. There was something from virtually every post that I could relate to; the healing effect of all your words is of far greater emotional benefit than anything ever read in a WT publication. I would never have believed that this "time bomb" waiting to go off would ever achieve a manageable level of emotional stability and relative normalcy. That, of course, would be I. An eternal optimist, ever playing Pollyanna's Glad Game, I nevertheless sensed a major disconnect between my ideal and life's reality. Mental and emotional chaos, lashing out, paralyzing fear and subsequent depression, thoughts of and near attempts at suicide---my inescapable lot in life. Despite recent up's and down's (some evidenced in comments on JWD), "Pollyanna" has regained "her" good cheer and emotional equilibrium, due in large part to your help. But "Pollyanna" has an attitude; things will never be the same nor can they be. No more caving in to emotional blackmail (thanx Lady Lee), no more wild, unsubstantiated assertions (thanx jgnat), no more self-pity (thanx Mouthy). Freedom---in every conceivable sense of the word---such as I could never have imagined! Thank you, The Wanderer, for broaching that "taboo" subject. I wish I could thank you all personally for this most incredible educational tool---your own life's experience. Praise and gratitude also to our loving Father and his dear Son!
Love and peace and infinite blessings to all of you,
CoCo