I LOVE YOU, MOM and Big Sister

by Good Girl or Bad Girl? 13 Replies latest social family

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  Good Girl or Bad Girl?

  If you are truly watching me on this board, like I think might be true, I just want you to know:

  I love you so so much.

  I miss you both terribly.

  I have never meant to do, say or post anything to hurt either of you. I've been trying to heal. I have felt very hurt over what has occurred over the past year.

  But I never want to heal my pain by causing yours.

  I will be much more careful about what I post about my family.

  It was so nice to see you yesterday for the 10 minutes I was there. I could tell I was not welcome there at all. I appreciate you allowing me to be there when you are so angry with me.

  I wish you could let go of the anger and look at the motive behind why I've done what I have done.

  I'm not running around trying to have a good time. I didn't walk away because I wasn't having enough fun.

  I had to walk away because I felt like I was dying.

  This may sound melodramatic to you, Mom and Sis, but if you would just remember, that was ME in the intensive care unit of the hospital 10 months ago. That was REAL. That was MY LIFE.

  I never want to be in that spot again.

  WE COULD JUST LOVE EACH OTHER. It COULD be that simple.

  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I hope one day you can believe that. I know you don't believe it now.

  I know I am a good person, with a good heart. I know that I'm only trying to do what I would think any mother and sister would want their daughter and sister to do: fight for my life.

  I wish and hope this post would make a difference.
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  Sparkplug

  Oh Liv, My heart just aches for you. You are one of the sweetest girls I know and I sure wish you were closer. I really do. I know when you lose your family you have to MAKE your new family out of the people you let in. It never replaces those you lost, but sometimes surpasses what you had. Hard to believe but true.

  I send lots of love your way.

  Hang in there gal.

  Decki
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  misanthropic

  GGBG, I feel for you I really do. I wish I could make it all better for you but I can't. You don't deserve to have so much on your shoulders. I've noticed you've really been having a hard time with this.
  If only their love could truly be unconditional. reading what you wrote and seeing you plea for something that you shouldn't have to even ask for just breaks my heart.
  Hang in their kiddo, your a good girl- a really good girl with a heart of gold.
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  delilah

  If only their love could truly be unconditional.

  Yeah.....life, with our JW relatives would be SOooooooo much easier, wouldn't it?! GG/BG, I'm thinking of you, and sending you a really big, huge hug...we loves you girl. I hope your mom and sister come 'round....you are a good person, with a good heart.
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  BlackSwan of Memphis

  (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

  WE COULD JUST LOVE EACH OTHER. It COULD be that simple.

  It should be that simple shouldn't it? I wish it were.
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  codeblue

  Sending you many hugs....

  I only dream of unconditional love with my family too...

  (do you really think they come to this site?)
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  zagor

  No child should ever beg for love of its parents. It should be there available free of charge like air we breath and sun we enjoy. People who put price on something like that should not be allowed to have children at all.
  I don't know you good girl but what you write here is something that can come only out of heart, and if a stranger such as myself can recognize that, surely loving parent and family should even more so.
  
  My heart goes out to you. You are much, much more worth than you know …

  John
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  bavman

  (((((((((GGBG))))))))))))))))))) <<<<<<<<<<< me reaching out to give ya a big ole hug.........

  Do something kind for yourself today. Family is who you make it.

  Your Brother,

  Bav
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  misanthropic

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  (((((((GGBG)))))))
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  Warlock

  Dear Mom,

  I have a daughter who is a few years younger than yours. The one thing, the main lesson I have learned as a parent, a J.W. parent, is, you cannot live your children's lives for them. They must freely choose the way they want to live their lives.

  Jehovah God Himself is the one who created us with freewill, and who are we to impose our will upon others, especially our children, when he does not impose his will upon us, his children. As a matter of fact, He asks us to go to Him FOR comfort. We, as parents should always be available for our children, no matter what their staus is before men.

  Should we reject our own children because they may have chosen a different life path than the one we may have wanted for them? As the Bile says "Never may that happen".

  When I decided to become one of Jehovah's Witnesses, do you think my mother approved of it? Her Catholic son changing religions? The religion of the whole famly? Of course she did not approve, but did she shun me for choosing MY life course? No she did not and neither did the rest of my family.

  No matter what choices our children may make, they are STILL our children, and deserve the love of their parents....................NO MATTER WHAT.

  Thank You,

  A Parent