Here's my latest poem

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  Abandoned

  I use to write poetry, but most of mine was really dark, this was while I was still in the borg. Now its kind of like a diff person writting.

  I'd love to read some - if you don't mind sharing. Here's one of my darker ones. You can probably tell, but I wrote it after a suicide attempt failed.

  Now I Know Feeling hopeless, useless
  Rejection left me low
  Way too low
  
  Death became an option
  The preferred option
  But no go
  
  I woke up, stomach pumped
  "Fuck you paramedics!"
  Profound woe
  
  Many memories missing
  Many bridges too
  Reap and sow
  
  Faith and hope dismantled
  Dreams all entangled
  Sun won't glow
  
  Reaching out for others
  Former friends AWOL
  New ones show
  
  Love and concern offered
  Their judgment AWOL
  Hope can grow
  
  Equilibrium regained
  Hard lessons learned
  Now I Know
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  nelly136

  damn you're good!!!!
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  Abandoned

  Thank you. I appreciate your compliment. I don't know how good I am at poetry, but for some reason I have a knack for expressing my emotions. It's ironic though. I've spent my entire life keeping my emotions in and a smile on my face but somehow I can explain how I feel. The even more ironic part is how many people don't believe that I'm depressed because I am so good at putting on a smile.

  The one main upside is that I am very intuitive to how other people feel. I know how I feel and I can sense how others are feeling but still I can't do anything when I feel low. The only thing I can do when I'm totally low is wait for it to pass. The only thing is that a few times, I didn't want to wait.
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  Ariel84

  Hi Abandoned,

  I really enjoyed reading your poetry! I can especially identify with the verse:

  My years spent with the bible, I wish I could reclaim All those moments wasted; For all I know is blame.

  We have all gone through a lot because of the borg, remember we are all here for you!
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  Abandoned

  Thanks Ariel84, I appreciate your kind words. I've had a lot to say about this subject but I couldn't before when I thought that I was condemned for not following the jw. Now that I know they're just a pitiful cult, I'm hoping I can get more of these out and finally heal.
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  Ariel84

  They are just a cult and I can't wait to be completely away from it, but for right now I'm still living at home with my parents who are active JWs. I used to write a little poetry and it was very theraputic, but its hard to keep a journal or something like that around when you think someone might see it, so I understand what you mean.