It has been exactly a year since I last posted to this website. In that year I tried once again to integrate myself in the cong. with my wife and my two daughters. I did allright for the first few months, but then the same things started happening. The questions that were never answered before returned.
It is now Nov. 30 and I haven't been to a meeting in a couple of weeks. We have become irregular for the past couple of months. I can't stand to live the lie any longer. I hurt to think on how my family and friends would react to hear of my intentions, but that can't be worth living miserably.
My wife has been throwing comments out that confuse me. I wish she would question something, anything, so I can unload on her how I really feel. But all I get are these small comments. How she wished we could celebrate our daughters birthday, how Christmas is such a beautiful holiday. I don't react to them because I've had so much bad luck before.
So I have returned, for support. For understanding. To those who know exactly what I'm going through.
Help me...
