What a wonderful response I have received from my last (which was my first post) post from everyone here.
The one thing that was drilled into my head was that you can not trust anyone that is not a JW. I had only one worldly friend since high school and she has been there for me thru everything. She even wrote a letter to the society about disfellowing and how wrong it is. Believe me it was a powerful letter. I am quickly making new friends and I am getting in touch with some old ex-JW's. At least the ones that are over what they have done and realize that they are only human and want more out of life then being a JW. Of course there are people out there that are not trust worthly but most are trying to do their best.
The main reason for this post is to say "THANK YOU!" All the responses I got on my first post are wonderful. There may need to be people that need that much control in their life to stay focused and not get in trouble but for the most of us, we do just fine without it. Your responses have given me the needed strength I need to move on and stay strong. I look forward to getting to now more people on here and to post more things as time allows.
THANKS A MILLION TIMES OVER!!!