Thanks for sharing that story and I am sure you feel better just getting that out, like for the first time I can speak and not be judge but rather understood. Ironically I read your story and the first three posts were all alike from people who are young and raised a witness.
I remember going through therapy several years back and I couldn't get my story out to my therapist. I only had to say one thing and she was able to express exactly how I felt. I asked her how, she said everyone who is abused like you have been, no matter where they come from the brain thinks alike in its emotions and you are no different then someone in another part of the world who has experience the same abuse. We really are not that different.
I hope you find peace my friend and brother, but don't allow frustration and anger to rule you, fill the void with positive and conquer them by being better than what they expect. Prove to them that you really are a good person and silence those who speak abusively of you, as Paul put it.
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