Welcome to the forum, BF.
I was never a j.w., however, my daughter became involved with it, through her aunt who is one.
When I first started researching the j.w. cult and arguing (which is not the right thing too do) with my daughter about their teachings, I used to feel inferior, because she seemed to have all the answers to whatever I came out with. Of course we all know now, that this is what they are taught....to have an answer for practically every question a "worldly" person could ask.
I would actually start to feel ....'Maybe she knows something I don't know".
Then, I aquired the book by Ray Franz called "Crisis of Conscience". Once I read this book, I KNEW she was in a cult, and it was I who "knew something SHE didn't know".
All my fears left me..... Get the book....read it, and you'll see if it doesn't straighten out your thinking.
Hubert