Welcome to JWD.
You sound like you could be my son IF i had of raised them as JW's! But thankfully I 'saw the light' before they were born and they never had to live through the cult.
Soul mates are everything aren't they! I married mine 13 years ago, he doesn't even realize that when i get on a rampage about JW's that just by him listening (i'm not saying he understands by any means) but just by listening and holding me makes everything alright.
Welcome to JWD.