I was on a search for God after learning jw was wrong.
I was listening to church sermons on podcasts trying to figure out what was right and wrong. Soon I was attending two community churches in my city.
At Easter the pastor asked who, for the first time, believed Jesus to be your Savior. I was starting to see Him that way and walked to the front.
I didn't know the relavance of what I was doing, but I was becoming saved.
There were no fireworks, but my SPIRIT CHANGED!
I began to take my stand seriously as being truthful and something to be pursued. Soon I was joyful! My actions were motivated by love. I was starting to feel WHOLE. I became confident and peaceful.
There is an excitement within me. I think of the feelings inside me as the Snoopy JOY dance. I also began to realize that my feelings were just like that of being in love with Jesus! All happy and excited about Him. Not crazily either, just happily!
I KNOW that I am NOT the person I was before that happened. I KNOW that I am different! I have never felt such happiness and joy in my life! I never feel alone. I feel He is WITH me.
I have felt this for a year now. I still try to comprehend what happened. Trying to figure if this could have come from something outside of the Holy Spirit. It seems to me it is the REAL thing! I can't explain it any other way.
It isn't a genie you can use for any problem or difficulty. But it IS a change WITHIN you and a burning desire for spiritual things. You wil NEVER be the same after it happens.
I am still in shock. I wasn't looking for such an experience. And even while searching I WAS interested in what BORN AGAIN people thought, I had NO idea I was becoming one!