Martini
It is just how you think that keeps so many in the WT loop. The difference with you, is that you are endeavouring to be honest and take a look at the facts.
What you will find is that everything that seemed to make so much sense, ie, Generation understanding, no blood, WT telling governments where to stick it and not giving a damn about legal consequences, are all abandoned. Now everything has become wishy washy, ambiguous, vague.
The membership has no idea where they are going and what they believe. That the end is coming "soon" is wearing so thin. The people are tired and losing their minds.
The God of the Bible's direction was clear and definite. There was no doubt in the minds of the followers. Today many Witnesses are actually concerned about whether our beliefs conflict with the Bible and whether remaining a Witness takes away our freedom to worship god with a clean conscience.
Just take your time and think, reflect on things. There's no need to make any rash decisions. You will find remaining a Witness will simply allow you to continue to asking the same questions over and over, always hoping that things will get better, always hoping the end will save you. Perhaps it will, perhaps not. Just look at the 60, 70, 80 year old witnesses in your hall. That will be you.
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