Ok.. For those of you who may not know me from previous posts, all I can say is this is unusual for me and please do not judge me as a person for it. For the other friends who know me by such, please take this into consideration when you read this. I would like to get some feedback on this, perhaps from some of the folks from the martial arts threat Joel started recently, especially if you have also read my other posts.. (hopefully a well balanced combo)
When I was coming home from work today I pulled out of a gas station to a four lane road, I need to make a right to get on the highway. There was a long line of cars, and I heard someone beeping but couldn't pinpoint the source. Well, the guy on the left was a good distance away so I and the person behind me pulled in to make the immediate right onto the highway, where I also checked by looking to the left to make sure there are no oncoming traffic. Well, the woman behind me went south, I went north and this guy with long grey hair pulled up next to me and the movement of his car might have been seen as potentially swerving into mine (it didn't, and wasn't that convincing if it was intended as such) and he excitedly gave me the bird/finger, while I raised my right hand in a "what are you talking about?" gesture and then he pulled in front of me.
Well, the only thing I can think of is that he was in the other lane on that side of the road and I didn't see him, because I did look around elsewhere and I would have saw if anyone came close to hitting me.
But, I decided to follow him.
The trip from work to my house/town is about 12 miles. I didn't do this immediately, kind of sat with it a little bit. At first I was kind of in his blind spot, but then I proceeded to pull up behind him and pulled out my mag-light just in case something happend.. He changed lanes several times (also changed two lanes over immediately after getting on the highway) and I followed him. I had a calm but visibly not-happy face. (I double checked in the mirror) I noticed him looking in the mirror several times. I pretended that I was still following him as he pulled right to get off at my usual exit, but as he pulled out I proceeded on the highway to take the next one instead. I kept a save distance throughout, I did not tailgate him.(incidentally, later I realized the police station is right off that exit, though I didn't think of it at the time)
OK, I know this probably sounds crazy to most people, but I thought this guy would be forced to think about it a little bit. While spending a little time on the treadmill it occurred to me that I have very little psychological fear, (as opposed to the physiological response of adrenaline etc, which I did feel during and after) the last time I remember feeling psychological fear was while under the influence of a binaural brainwave CD, I felt a demonic entity was hovering above me. (can you guess that I was still under the JW spell?)
Anyways at one point I did feel just a bit of sadness at having potentially caused such psychological terror in this guy, even though he obviously wanted to display himself as a tough guy. Now please, believe me when I say I am not someone who would go pick fights, this is certainly not a regular occurrance in my life. I suppose maybe in a way this is how I chose to get it out of my system rather than bottle it up and pretend it didn't happen when the fact is it's still with me. So... I don't know guys. In these crazy times I certainly don't want to cause more chaos, I mean it does occur to me that even though I was in control, he might have rear ended the guy in front of him as he was getting off. So what do you think? Please, please take into consideration what you know of me outside of this episode, I'm not a bad guy really!