Dedicated to my kids...

by alamb 16 Replies latest jw friends

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  alamb

  And the swallowing blackness

  from which I drag my soul

  is now clutching for my children

  and I see them disappear

  and I see their faces

  the faces they hide behind as they knock on the doors,

  and memorize those words.

  Good news of terror and death and hate.

  And I dare not lose their stares as they sink

  for it is the last hold

  And if blink, they will be gone

  and they will forget I exist

  and who they are.

  So I look in those faces

  and open my heart to send the love they felt

  when they lived under my heart.

  and hope they never forget .
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  Rooster

  Very Nice..
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  freedomloverr

  nice poem alamb. kind of sad though....
  
  are your kids not with you?
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  alamb

  I have three daughters lost in the cult. I went through a 6 year custody court battle and the JW's (congregation, my own family, and my ex) threatened the kids with death at Armageddon and bribed them with ponies in the new system. Part of the hearings are on YOUTUBE where an elder lies about shunning and the custody brochure.

  They still have contact with me but are paying the price via marking, etc. for having an apostate mom. Living without your children is a sort of walking death you must do to be their only chance out. The court condemned the practice of shunning and blasted the judgementalism that damaged my kids...then gave them custody.
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  purplesofa

  very intense, Im sorry about your circumstances.

  thankyou for sharing from so raw in your heart.
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  Merry Magdalene

  I am so sorry for what you have been through and continue to go through, alamb

  There is a flame burning in my heart for you and yours...

  

  There is always hope that they will see the light of truth one day. Never give up.

  ~Merry
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  alamb

  Thankyou... my life goes on but part of it is forever tied to them and I will never give up. We have all lost something...time, education, children, grandchildren, parents, parts of ourselves. Taking a stand for what we have found costs us. But we are stronger for it. I have two children who are cult-free!
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  Dismembered

  Greetings to you alamb,

  What a beautiful pic. I surmise that's your daughter with you, as she looks like your identical twin. Nice to see you posting.

  Dismembered
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  Quandry

  alamb

  I feel pain in my heart for you. My sixteen year old daughter was cruelly treated by men who mascaraded as Christian shepherds but were vile Pharisees. They disfellowshipped her, telling her "And if you are still disfellowshipped at Armageddon, you can take some comfort in knowing that Jehovah can read hearts." Then of course, they would have liked nothing better than for her dad and me to shun her unmercifully.

  What evil exists in the hearts of men.

  I went back and read some of your first posts on the forum. You had a horrible custody battle for your kids, I saw. At that time the oldest was thirteen. By now she must be eighteen. Can she be with you now? Do you see any of your family now?
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  becca1

  They are precious! I'm trully sorry for your situation. I live in fear that something will go wrong with my fade and I would lose mine.