I'm just starting to REALLY feel lonely for my girlfriends back home and my sister and sometimes feel desperate like it's not such a great adventure as I originally thought.
I hear ya, sweety! Know this: It is still the great adventure, it is still your path even if it darkens a tad here and there (that's part of the journey)--you set your hand to the plough, try not to look back! Forge ahead.
I do understand what you are going through, though. I tell myself the above words on an almost daily basis. It was easier for me because I was coming back home (to Texas) but I left behind A LOT back in Denver......alot. This is the nature of sacrifice. polarity and opposites. Ultimately you follow your path to the Self, which is the ultimate "Home".
Be where you are is what I tell myself. Home is where the heart is and your heart is with your sweety.
((((((GGBG)))))))
Love and Light,
~Brigid