When I was a JW I didn't question the existence of God. There was no doubt that Jehovah or God was real. Occasionally though, I did have doubts. Like so many others I would wonder why, if God existed, would he permit so much evil to continue all over the world. I mean if, as we were taught, God was our father and we were his children, why would he allow humanity to suffer for so long? Would a loving parent allow their children to be harmed or hurt and not intervene in some why to help them? Especially if those "children" were crying out or praying for help? But of course as a JW I had to remain silent and I could never discuss these doubts.
Now recently I have begun to seriously question if a God or deity does actually exist. There has been much written on this subject. A friend suggested that I read "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins. At this point in my life I consider myself an agnostic. While I'm not yet an atheist, I do find myself leaning in that direction more and more every day.
Many historians and scholars believe that the whole God and religion concept were invented to control the masses. If this is so, then this would mean that there is really no heaven, hell or afterlife to look forward to when we die. And if this is the case, then it shows how valuable and precious our lives truly are.
Ok, I need help!
Is anyone else struggling with this "does God exist" dilemma?