by lola28 11 Replies latest jw friends
Hey Lola
Glad you are feeling a little better today. What a difference a bit of rest makes to our outlooks. (I constantly have to remind myself of that too).
I also wanted to say Woohoo! for me because I made Master member on my last post on your thread! I can't think of another thread I would rather have posted it on then a Lupus thread of yours. Remember the night I stayed up all night talking nonsense with you to help you make Jedi?
Keep us posted on you and sis.
Cog
Things got worse this morning and we had to go to the hospital, they did even more tests and sure enough her body is not producing insulin and we all know what that means. So here we are in the hospital again and I just want to cry, because I'm sick an tired of hospitals, I can't stand them, to make things worse they send us to a floor that has kids in physical rehab an it was just too much for me to see all these children in pain ( I saw one little boy without an arm, a kid on a wheel chair that had really bad burns) and I just got up, went to the bathroom and cried. My sister had a heart problem as a baby and I can't count how many nights I spent in the ER with her, I was only 11 but I made it a point to learn everything about her condition and I knew even at 11 that everything would turn out ok. She had her operation for her heart condition and I thought that the worst was behind us and then last year we get hit with the news that she has Lupus. I used to be sure that everything would be okay but now I'm not, I'm afraid and I'm tired of having to go to hospitals, I'm just so tired.
Sorry to hear about what's happening with your sister. Something similar happened to me in my 20's, my husband was diagnosed with cancer and had to have an amputation because of this. He was active duty military, so they sent him to a military hospital in Colorado. I saw so many injured young men. I saw a young girl who had her hair shaved off because they had to remove a tumor. The girl was emotionless. I saw a man whose arms had been amputated at the forearm level, and he also had both of his legs amputated below the knee, and he had a halo on. I looked him dead in his eyes and I tell you his eyes were smiling. It was after this that I felt humans were just ants and I wondered about the meaning of life. . .that's why I started taking my studies with the dubs so seriouslly. Being a dub made me feel worse. I still wanted to go to college. I disassociated myself and later went to school to be a nurse.
Your sister sounds like she's a fighter! If she isn't producing any insulin, she can get an insulin pump. You deserve to cry. Hang in there!
