Crisis of Conscience

by sexyk 21 Replies latest jw friends

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  purplesofa

  It took me awhile to read it, had to put it down, take a break.

  I remember when reading it, putting it down also, and saying there is only so much one can emotionally take.

  purps
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  drew sagan

  I had no idea what to expect when I picked that book up. I was still quite fearful at the time that the wicked apostates where going to 'carry me away'.
  
  Towards the end of the book I could finally begin to see what this organization really was built upon. It shocked me to find out that there really is no accountability within the leadership. The higher you get in rank, the less accountable you are (as long as you simply stick to their doctrines).
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  Undecided

  I had quit the "Truth" for many years and the CofC cleared my mind of all quilt. I loaned it to my brother who had been D"fd for a holiday infraction and it cleared his mind of guilt also. We are so much bettter friends now than we ever were as JWs. and so much closer as family. You won't regret reading it.

  Ken P.
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  Blueblades

  After reading this book, you will no longer be a "Captive Of a Concept". Your own 'crisis of Conscience' will be settled. It's an eye- opener on the inner workings behind closed doors. You get to sit in on Governing Body meetings.

  Blueblades
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  Confession

  For me, the level of indoctrination and mental enslavement found among lifelong, active JWs is demonstrated in the actions of people like me while reading Crisis of Conscience. I was a perfectly intelligent 38 year old man. When I began to "awaken" about the organization, I contacted a few people over the phone. Just to talk.

  One of the people I spoke to was Outaservice--who started shipping me book after book, brochure after brochure, cassette after cassette. This included both Crisis of Conscience and In Search of Christian Freedom by Franz, and a slew of other books by M. James Penton, Carl Olof Jonsson, etc. He must have spent quite a few hundred dollars on me. (Of course, when I insisted I repay him and asked how much, he calmly replied, "Two thousand dollars." He wouldn't take a cent.)

  I lived alone. But, since my 17 year old daughter would spend time with me during the week, I hid every tidbit of "apostate propaganda" in an extra large leather duffle bag of mine, stowing it deep in my closet. I was also concerned that the ladies who came to clean my apartment once a month might notice these books. Although neither of them were JWs, I worried that they might mention having seen these books to someone else who was--and that it might get back to the congregation.

  Occasionally I'd take CoC out with me, but was so fearful someone would see me with it, that I'd hide it under other things in the car. I remember once being intensely paranoid, taking it into the waiting room of my doctor's office. Here I was, an otherwise normal adult, actually trying to hide the cover of this book with a magazine while reading it. Just in case. Having served as an elder, I knew how serious this organization was about apostasy, and though I already knew it wasn't The Truth, I still suffered from a strong, residual fear that merely reading a book was something to feel shame over. It took time to escape this institutionally implanted "fear of man."

  For another account of an elder, beginning to read CoC, read Amazing's story here... http://www.exjws.net/pioneers/part1.htm
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  SirNose586

  I ordered CoC and The Gentile Times Reconsidered a few days ago. Then I'll have my Four Books of the Apocalypse...
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  AK - Jeff

  For those who read it, has it changed your life in any way ? Personal thoughts please.

  The day I finished it, I knew I could never go back. The healing took more time - but the first steps of the journey were confirmed then.

  Jeff
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  GetBusyLiving

  It's better to read when you have doubts or have just recently stopped attending meetings. The first blast goes straight to your head and you just want more and more until the entire book is finished. If you've been out for a while the effects aren't quite as good.

  Check out his other book too, in my opinion even better.

  GBL
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  Sassy

  although some chapters were a bit dry.. I am so glad I read every page. It really helped me come to terms with some of my feelings about leaving the JWs
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  theinfamousone

  i ordered it too... and i hope it comes really really soon, because i cannot wait to crack that cover!!!

  the infamous one