I would be in an unhappy marriage to some JW brother.
If we both hadn't decided it wasn't for us, or i may just have followed along being the yes person.
but i am very head strong so i don't know if i could be the submissive wife.
Helen
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I would be in an unhappy marriage to some JW brother.
If we both hadn't decided it wasn't for us, or i may just have followed along being the yes person.
but i am very head strong so i don't know if i could be the submissive wife.
Helen
I'd be exactly where I am now, I realized the truth about "The Truth" only a little over a year and a half ago- I'd walked away from it years earlier.
I'd possibly be an elder by now, as I was an ms and being considered
for eldership when I left.
I'd still be feeling miserable and guilty about never being able to do
enough for jah.
IF I'd married any of the bros who showed an interest in me when I was 19, 20, 21.........
I might be married now to an elder....we would have had a couple of kids....who would have gone through their disfunctional stage, drugs, alcohol....the kids would have been disfellowshipped and I would be miserable. The kids would have got over their disfunctional stage and would now be normal and hopefully, well adjusted citizens. I would still be miserable. But I wouldn't have shunned my kids. I know that, because even as a devout JW, I had a rebellious streak and refused to shun anyone.
INSTEAD I'm alone but I'm not miserable. I had the "misfortune" of falling in love with non-JWs. We didn't marry or even live together. I went through hell. But they were both intelligent men and they planted the seed of doubt. I now know the truth about "the truth" and I am forever grateful.
penny2
First I thought that the WTS would be paradise.
Then I realized I did not want to spend eternity with those unloving, lying (as a group) people at the KH.
Blondie
History would keep repeating itself. I would go to some Sunday morning meetings out of guilt, after failing to think up a good excuse not to go. When I would force myself to go, I would sit in the back and leave as soon as the meeting was over. I would go to the Memorial each year and feel awkward. I'd cry a lot and ask Jehovah to help me to be a better JW. Periodically, I would hope to be hit by a truck just to make all the turmoil go away and maybe I'd make it into the New Order. I would remain in this hamster wheel for the duration.
History would keep repeating itself. I would go to some Sunday morning meetings out of guilt, after failing to think up a good excuse not to go. When I would force myself to go, I would sit in the back and leave as soon as the meeting was over. I would go to the Memorial each year and feel awkward. I'd cry a lot and ask Jehovah to help me to be a better JW. Periodically, I would hope to be hit by a truck just to make all the turmoil go away and maybe I'd make it into the New Order. I would remain in this hamster wheel for the duration.
Yup. It really sucked didn't it sis?
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