As I had mentioned in a thread last week, my dad has been on my case about attending meetings.
I've been to ONE meeting in about a month and that's not counting the DC.
Well he decides to question me before he went off to Book Study yesterday evening. He asked if I was going and I told him no. I was energetically drained plus I was feeling a bit nauseated, so if I did WANT to go I wouldn't have anyway. But yea he questions me BEFORE he left for the meeting and after me telling him "NO" he asks..."You aren't losing you're ZEAL are you? You know i'm concerned about you?" I once again told him how was feeling physically and he said.."ok..well I don't have to tell you...you know how important the meetings are. Don't forget about Jehovah." Then he leaves
So after he gets back home later the first thing he says is..."Sister so-and-so asked about you...AND you're mom too. She said it's not like you to miss so many meetings. So what's been the problem huh?!" His tone that time was intimidating, totally unnecessary, and this was in front of my mom and sister. Then mom spoke up and said.."well I don't think the sister meant for you to question him like that!!" Then my dad backed down and walked out the room.
First thing is...why in the world was it necessary for him to bring this up so quick after he mentioned it earlier. Just because this sister said something he wants to jump down my throat. The way he came at me the second time wouldn't encourage me a bit to go the the meetings. And like i've said before..he can be a complete jerk sometimes. Even when I was a faithful company man Dub trying to make EVERY meeting it's like he was working AGAINST me..trying to find fault with ANYTHING I did. He is part of the reason I wanted to FADE, but the way he's acting i've almost reached the point of not caring anymore. I might DA myself and just reassure him that I love him and will be here for him and just leave it up to him if he shuns me or not.
Second...if this sister is so concerned, why not give me a call? She has both of my phone numbers. She is one of those gossipers that gets her kicks out of backbiting anyone she thinks that is "losing Jehovah's spirit". She sees the fault in everyone but never sees her own. I think that's why my mom spoke up because she knows how these "sisters" are and doesn't like the crap. My mom even said many times in the past that that's why she isn't close to the women in the congo(no offense ladies) because of their arrogance. Throughout all that i've been through over the last month, Mom never once grilled me about going to the meetings. She's told me once that I might should go to get out the house and maybe it'll help me feel a bit better but that's it. She doesn't attend much herself, never goes door-to-door, and isn't baptized(yet). She hasn't expressed interest in getting baptized thank goodness...but it still sucks that she's pretty much under the same rules since she's a publisher. But it's really not looking too bad to DA right now.
I don't even want to tell my dad that I have doubts about the org. He will cave in and tell it to the elders or others if they start questioning HIM. Heck he's such a tattle-tell that he felt obliged to tell the elders that my sister got pregnant without being married and she wasn't even baptized! Not a publisher, not anything!! Just attending meetings from time to time!
I remember again when I was one of the self-righteous Dubs, when my dad stopped going to meetings how I asked him about it alot. He told me not to worry about him, just worry about myself. I feel like doing the same.
Venting once again......
R.F.