I can honestly say, that several days and even weeks can go by, without me thinking about the Witnesses. I come here and skip the Witness related topics, unless they mention something about changes or new understanding. I just do not put a lot of focus on them, at this point in my life. I remember when I first left, as much as I would say, "I never think about the religion." I did a lot. It was thoughts of; reasoning outside the box of their programing, guilt and even reaffirmation of my stand. Now, I find myself forgetting a lot of the details of their beliefs and even finding it hard to remember names of people I spent years with in the congregations. I find the more I do not think about them, the more normal I feel in life. Where do you stand on this issue, are you consumed with Witness related thinking in your day or is it more a passing thought now?
How often do "Jehovah's Witness" related thoughts consume your life?
by free2beme 13 Replies latest jw friends
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Arthur
For right now, every single day. I am not DFd or DAd. But, I know that I will be DFd shortly. I stand to lose contact with all of my family and most of my relatives. I'm trying to prepare myself for it mentally and emotionally, but I know that it's something that no one can be completely prepared for.
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jaguarbass
If I want to think soundly, I shouldnt think about the witnesses at all. Some times when I feel sorry for myself I start thinking about the witnesses and the bad decisions I made due to my association with them.
So, I must enjoy misery to a degree because I keep comming back here stiring my bad feelings up.
Thats something to ponder, If you keep hitting your head on the door thinking it wont hurt, some people call that insanity.
I guess, I'm nuts. That explains everything.
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Marcel
every damn single day. i even cant stop reading the literature.
sometimes i even dream about it. i dreamt of getting DF'ed and shunned so often - its a nightmare.
virtually im already out of the org, but emotionally i suffer from my findings about the "truth".
still a long way to go i guess :/ -
nvrgnbk
every damn single day. i even cant stop reading the literature.
sometimes i even dream about it. i dreamt of getting DF'ed and shunned so often - its a nightmare.
virtually im already out of the org, but emotionally i suffer from my findings about the "truth".
still a long way to go i guess :/Wow! I had no idea Marcel.
Pm me anytime! We gotta get you over that.
For right now, every single day. I am not DFd or DAd. But, I know that I will be DFd shortly. I stand to lose contact with all of my family and most of my relatives. I'm trying to prepare myself for it mentally and emotionally, but I know that it's something that no one can be completely prepared for.
Sorry Arthur. I had no idea. Will you be df'd for apostasy?
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IP_SEC
about 6.34% of waking life
.0000029% of my sleep.
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nvrgnbk
about 6.34% of waking life
.0000029% of my sleep.
Be honest IP_SEC.
You know it's at least 8.35% of your waking life.
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Dragonlady76
Once upon a time.... I constantly thought about how Jehovah was watching my every move as the time passed the thoughts became less frequent until the ceased.
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sweet pea
freetobeme - you give me hope!! Thank you.
Right now the thoughts consume me throughout the day, every day. If I come to JWD and/or read anything JW related (and I haven't quite read everything I want to yet) it gets worse.
The deafening silence of the phone/doorbell is a constant reminder of the many friends I have lost.
I do know that time will heal and new relationships take time to develop and there is no shortcut to this, other than maybe leaving JWD/JW related book alone! -
Crumpet
The deafening silence of the phone/doorbell is a constant reminder of the many friends I have lost.
Its different for me as I was never really established long enough to make that many friends inside and I have so many out! And you will too honey. You have me and any time you want a sitter so you two can go out - you only have to ask. I require a fully stocked fridge (okay some cheese and olives goes down well!) and a couch for the night! And I will see you very soon!