Okay, I recently read "Captives of a Concept" by Don Cameron and I am utterly shocked, yet I feel so I don't know- hell, FREE! This guilt of believing in "god's organization" and feeling as if I was losing something that in reality never even existed! At first I felt so guilty, as if it was my issues that led me to my path of not having faith in the organization and in a sense always believed that I was just immoral and couldn't uphold the standards. But not anymore- my loves for the menses just made me see that the Emperor new clothes in a different way from most and I couldn't change that.
Sorry, it sounds as if I'm rambling, but I just fiished it last night and I just had to tell somebody. Since I can't go home and go "Hey mom, I think you're wasting your life and I have something to share with you that willbBreak your Reality as you know it! So.. Red pill or Blue pill?"
-I decided to come and share that with you all!
If anyone still has doubts or fears, or feelings of shame about leaving this organization, READ "Captives of a Concept" and start to free yourself of all those feelings. It's like having a dirty little secret now when I'm at the meetings that turned those one or two hours of routine self-hatred and torture into a full blown comedy skit or something... last meeting I went to I had to fight not to roll my eyes hard... and I lost.
I swear, I have gay porn under my JW mom's roof, and I keep that book more hidden!