Thanks....I mean it.
I think this is enough to get me through the night.
Also, one of my good freinds (from australia) logged on outta nowhere. That's also making me feel less alone.
Think I can function at the convention on 5 hours sleep?
"Turning it around" also doesn't seem like something I'd do. Technically, since I can't talk to her, and I can't look her in the eye, I'm 'shunning' her... She apparently doesn't give a damn. But I don't want to get aggressive.
Stupid teenager(me) needs some nice words... *extremely long, sorry*
by Anony-Mouse 23 Replies latest jw friends
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Anony-Mouse
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theinfamousone
first: you're 17... you were not in love, you were not close to love, you were infatuated.... yeah, i know its harsh, but once you start getting into real relationships you will see.... this was a crush, this was infatuation... i know because i was 17 not too long ago... i called myself a hopeless romantic... and now i realize that the honest to god truth is this; i was just a baby... damn, im probably still just a baby... i can oly imagine what the future is gonna bring me in the whole "love" department.....
that being said, i also remember how much it hurt to lose "love" at that point... especially in the borg... just remember this; there is so much out there.... while i dont suggest it for you, your options are surely different than mine, i was living on my own at 17! remember that you will heal... it will not take long... being young helps us heal quicker, not only physically but also emotionally...
second: why the hell do you want a friend like that? she is (pardon my french) an (expletive deleted) bitch.... if she is going to be this rude to you, make you feel insignificant and throw you away like a dirty rag, over gossip, well, you're way better off without her... remember man, she threw you away! and the other thing here is, she is a dub... even if this relationship progressed somehow, she will abandon you when you decide it is time to leave.. i think its better to get rid of her now, than 2 years from now, when you are so much closer to her.... you do not want someone who can be that rude, and lets be honest, MEAN, as a friend...way better off without people like that in your life...
i like the line you sed... i use it myself, since i do not have family that i can call family.. the one when you say "friends are the people you choose to be part of your life"... man, i think you need to choose better... while i was in the borg, i took the society's words seriously... be aware of who your friends are, especially in the borg... find people who feel slightly like you... or at least those who you know will be there for you when you decide to leave... i have one or two who were there for me when i was in, and when i was out.. and now they are out too.... its easier said than done, but it can be done!!! find better friends... you dont need either of those bitches...
third: you are not alone... the borg is rying to force you to feel that way... they want you to think there is no one to hug you better... no one who really cares... they want you to feel so alone that only the GB will be there for you... from my experience here, there are so many people to turn to... so many people on this site alone that will be like your mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters... people that, will call you, long distance, at three in the morning if you need someone to talk to...im one of them, only because some of the people here have done it for me... PM me if you need to talk, i can call you anytime man... anytime you neeed.......
as much as i cant hug you and say it will all be better... i can at least tell you this, I HAVE BEEN HEARTBROKEN, TOO MANY TIMES... but it taught me so much... it made me a better person... most importantly, IM ALL BETTER NOW! so what i am telling you is this, IT WILL ALL BE BETTER!!! YOU WILL BE OK!!!
and with all that, i send you a virtual hug!!!!! good luck on growing up, its hard... and PM me any time you need, ill be your big brother...
and might i suggest getting a part time job?? give yourself some contact with people other than witnesses and some time outside of home with mom....
the infamous one
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bikerchic
(((((AM)))))
I hope you don't mind a hug from an old gal! When I read your post it reminded me of any one of my three boys and their heart breaks with different girls growing up, as a Mom I just wanted to slap the ever lovin' poo outa those darn girls for hurting my boys! But ya know it's just life we all have to kiss some frogs to find our prince or princesses. Use this as a learning step in the process of dating girls, yes they can be mean, cruel, fickle, heartless and prickly, but they can also be the total opposite of that.........ah hum....that's where the trouble begins! LOL
Also, I think I'm going to avoid girls completely. Older, younger, doesn't matter. All the girls that surround me are JWs, and there's nothing I can do about it. Best to ignore them.
I would at least for the next 5 years or so, give them a chance to grow up and be women, women are way more interesting and not so prone to moodiness! You'll like women!
Well I tried to cheer ya I probably didn't cuz you just have to feel crapy for a while in fact feel as crapy as you want and even cry it helps clear the pipes then get on with it, go have fun with some buds and forget those darn girls! Besides I just wanted to give you a hug!
G'nite kiddo!
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bikerchic
Oh for cripes sake you know what could be worse than some stupid girl giving you problems? How about being married at your age? I was married at 17! How would you like to be married to a mean, cruel, fickle, heartless and prickly girl? No wonder I had such a rough first marriage I was way to young to get married!
Chin up kiddo it could be worse!!!!! Now you go out and have fun and get to know who you are and become a wonderful man and then give those women something to swoon over!
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sass_my_frass
You won't like this, but my opinion is that she is a turd. She might not deliberately be mean, immature and brutal, but she is those things anyway. You can do far better. But I'm sorry you're so blue about it. Some people stay in our heads for far longer than they deserve. I've been blissfully married for a couple of years and just this morning I woke up from a dream about some old JW friends including one guy I held such a bright torch for, for a couple of years. He was a turkey, and I knew it, and just couldn't get him out of my head back then. I was surprised how vividly that feeling came back in the dream. The dream ended with all those mates of mine telling me in song that they knew I didn't believe it all and had to move on. They were smiling when they sang it, slapping each other on the back.
They're all turds - in a few years you'll be in a position to get on with your life without them. In the meantime hang in there little bro!!
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sinis
If you want some good advise, here you go. You say your home schooled? Shit can that idea, go to a public school and get a scholarship to college. Even if you don't get a scholarship still go to a public school, it helps socialize you. Still go to college. Leave the JW's, and when your a successful thirty year old whatever, with a faithful wife or girlfriend, you'll think back to this day and laugh. Actually you won't even remember this day because all of the positives coming from this thread will overwhelm you and you won't ever think that you were never a ladies man. Your 15 year old "friend" will have married a regular pioneer, who is now the PO, and toting around 3 kids. Forever putting on the smile, while deep down inside, if she sees you (even if she doesn't), she detests her life. Don't get me wrong, life can give you several roles of the dice, all big winners, but do you want to win the jackpot early in the "evening", or break even at the end of the "night"? HTH
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quietlyleaving
I look at my problem unbiasedly....and all I can think is: "This is your worst problem? That's IT!? Why would such a petty thing as one girl bother you to this extreme extent?"
The only answer I can come up with is....I am weak. I have noone to hold me and tell me everything will be OK. Noone is there that I can talk to. Anyone who could possibly give a damn is in no position to help. And above all....
I am alone.(((((((Anony-Mouse)))))))))))
If you'r gonna call yourself weak then you have to call us all weak (I have no problem with that) cos we've all experienced the feelings you've described - rejection, betrayal, cold heartedness, aloneness and of course the beautiful love and friendship you feel for this girl. You are gonna see what you describe in the movies and read about it in books - but it will never be as real as when you experience it yourself.
This is advice from someone much older. So live it and continue telling about it. We care - you're not annonymous here.
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free2think
((((((Anony-Mouse)))))))
I'm so sorry your feeling so down, i think you know my thoughts on the girl.
I can totally identify with how you are feeling, when i was growing up i was really ill so most of the people i saw was dubs. I know for me personally my friends were not people i would choose to be friends with but out of desperation i had to make do.
I think its really their loss, from talking to you on msn i think your a great guy, and i do mean it not just b/c you asked for nice words.
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DJK
Wow AM, a first love type story like my own. Identical!
First love's are important to some people. I suggest you move on. Accept the fact that it isnt meant to be. Hold onto the memory though. When your 51 like me, you will still feel strongly for her.
DJK
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jgnat
Too bad she treated you so badly. As a reference for social interactions in the future, use face-to-face for messages with a lot of emotional content. As people, we express a thousand times more through our faces than our words. Face-to-face prevents a lot of misunderstanding.
It is terrible to be alone, where you are now. I can relate to that feeling of weakness, that the terrible pressure is too much for one person to bear. I've told God about it, and He's carried me through a couple bad patches lately. In the absence of prayer, I hope I can still help you feel better by knowing that even in your weakness, you can overcome.
You have an exit plan, right? I've found it helpful, if the present isn't so pleasant, to think about my plan and my future. Helps put the current misery in perspective.