is it wrong to even think about it? either of us will be much better off with the other gone. how can a religion take over and have so much control. I know truth, but only when is walks up and sticks a finger deep into my eye socket. this is my second marraige and I never thought I would have to make a concious decision as to how it should end. ireally can not keep living this way, and 4th generation zombie has awakened with no friends at all after 46 years. I am at my beach cottage, paid for, this should be a happy place, but it is lonely. my son whom i used to love is at fucking bethel and is hgih on kool-aid and he does not even know his live is over, and my wife trying to find me another doctor, this time to stop my obsessive thoughts.....all the society had to do was answer my damn questions, but no.....spit spit spit, take that face, we will not akowlege you, you are unworthy, you are worthles, satan has obvioulsy possesed you because you want to ask a real question, and expect an answer
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