hooray i've finally worked out what nvrgnbk stands for
I'd always found it hard to walk through the door to be honest, though much of it at first was a confidence issue. Sometimes i get to the door and turn back and go home. The last time i went a 'brother' was so rude and sarcastic to me when i went to get the mags that it was the final straw as far as meetings were concerned. Then when they tried the 'your children will be killed because of you' emotional blackmail on me it was the last straw and i knew i'd had enough.