thank you so much everyone for the replies-
it really means alot. It's funny because I just found this forum this past week and I'm amazed, and relieved, to find so many feel the same way I do. In fac, it just cements that what i feel is real and not the result of being "influenced" or whatever. I truly have felt an enormous weight lifted off and my husband and I feel even more close than ever before.
in one of our conversations I said to my hsuband "what if our marriage falls apart because we're not going to meetings?" of course still thinking we needed that "threefold" to survive. My husband put it perfectly. He said "we never had a family study, we rarely made it out in service. We "shunned" the holy spirit years ago and we've been just fine. We're together because we love each other and just because we leave the organization doesn't mean all of a sudden our morals and values change. We're still committed to each other" So yeah, I'm truly grateful that we see eye to eye and we no longer have to hide anything from each other.
I have gotten in touch with my sister. She's across the country, but we're slowly restoring what was lost for so long.
I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone :)
Thanks again for all the replies