HELLO EVERYONE,
HERE IS PART OF MY STORY UNTIL I HAVE MORE TIME. I AM KNOW 30 YEARS OLD, I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS TO SOMEONE WHO HAS NO RELGOUS TIES AT ALL. I WAS BAPTIZED WHEN I WAS 19 DUE TO PRESSURE FROM MY FAMILY, THEY WANTED ME TO TO GET BAPTIZED WHEN I WAS 16. I THINK I MAY HOLD THE RECORD FOR MOST COMITEE MEETINGS PROBABLY ABOUT 20, I WAS PUBLILCLY REPROVED AND DISASSOCIATED. I DECIDED IN1997 THAT IWAS DONE WITH WHEN MY DAD WHO IS AN ELDER CAME TO ONE DAY AND SAID THEY WERE GOING TO FORM ANOTHER COMMITEE ON ME BECAUSE IT HAD BEEN REPORTED THAT I WAS DRINKING WITH SOME FREINDS AND MAY HAVE HAD TO MUCH TO DRINK. THAT DAY I TOLD HIM TO GO AHEAD AND FORM A COMITTEE BUT I WOULD NOT BE MEETING WITH THEM BECAUSE I WAS NO LONGER GOING THROUGH MY LIFE WORRIED ABOUT THIS TYPE OF SITUATION AGAIN. I SIMPLY QUIT GOING TO THE MEETINGS, AFTER THAT IWAS ONLY VISITED ONE MORE TIME AND TOLD THEM I WOULD NOT ADDRES THAT OR ANY OTHER ISSUE AGAIN. I AM NOT DISFELLOWSHIPPED, HOWEVER I HAVE NOT A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS SINCE EVEN THOUGH WE TALK. MY MOM AND I GET INTO OUR NORMAL ARGUMENTS AFTER SHE RETURNS FROM THE ASSEMBLIES AND TELLS ME ABOUT DIFFERENT NEW LIGHTS. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO TALK ABOUT, IHAVE CHARCTER FLWS THAT ONLY YOU GUYS MAY UNDERSTAND. I AM PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST DEFENSFUL PERSONS YOU WILL EVER MEET. I HAVE SPENT THE MAJORITY OF MY LIFE DEFENDING EVRYTHING I DID, IWAS QUESTIONED CONSTANTLY BY THE ELDERS AND FAMILY ABOUT WHAT I WAS DOING WRONG. I HAVED LIVED IN FEAR SINCE IWAS BORN THAT IF I DO NOT ADHERE TO CERTAIN RULES THAT I WOULD DIE WITH THE RES OF THE WICKED PEOPLE. THIS IS MY FIRST STEP IN ATTEMPTING TO RID MYSELF OF THIS THINKING, THANKS FOR LETTING ME BEGIN TO HEAL. I WILL BE POSTING AGAIN TO TELL THE REST OF MY STORY.
