You know that feeling that you have worked like you are about to drop and yet you feel SO DAMN GOOD? Well that is how I am feeling. Not that it is a hugely interesting story, but this week has been as long as they come. Thought I would share it with you.
WOW What Fun Right?
It started with me being sick. Sinus and headache like I have not had in years. Then beginning Monday it moved into my chest and I have been so worn down. BUT I am in training for a new job position and cannot miss work. With that said, I have sat every day and tediously learned another , I don't know...7 or so computer programs, launguages and Federal and 5 State Tariff manuvering. I have to be honest and say that I have attempted to learn the basics of this all in between a throbbing headache, coughing till I cannot stand myself, and apologizing to everyone for all the germs I know I am spreading.
I was really looking forward to Friday and getting home to relaxation and some Zen time. BUT as I pulled into my drive I notice my best friend wandering down the back alley with my ex-step daughter and things do not look right. After asking a few questions and in between tears and what I could asertain, I realized that my ex-step son never came home from school. OMG. This was just horrible. I felt so numb and yet strangely calm at the same as I proceeded to give instructions to each child that was there, and join the search. I called my loved ones and they started off as soon as they could to get to help us on the search.
Two hours later, the police and neighbors are driving around. The public library has a search and I am starting to loose that strange calm that overtook me. Inside I am freaking out and I know his momma is doing the same by now. To make a long story short, he was found and as any 9 year old would do when lines are crossed, he decided to walk a good 5 miles or so in the opposite direction of where he should be and when found he was back at his home watching TV. I never have wanted to hug and beat a child so much at the same time.
So against my bettter judgement still being sick, but truly thinking a good drink would be wonderful, the girlfriends and I decide to have some drinks, let the kids jump on the trampoline and unwind. I had purchased some really nice Vodka that I have not tried before and BAAAbaeee it was smooth. I did not think that hard though as seeing I had been sick all week, not eaten and with a very empty stomach and shot nerves, I proceeded to have a good tall smooth drink. And wow... that was not wize.
During the night later being thirsty, I took a big drink of some juice I had at the house that had gone bad and did not realize it until I had drank far too much of it to turn back. So now, sick, nerves shot, a headache to beat all and a sick tummy I am up all hours of the night. My son is sick, My honey is sick, the kids are sick and in the morning we have offered to help clear a mess of trees and bramble out of a yard.
So a weekend later and two huge trailers full of hard work done, I am SORE, aching, shakey and LOVING LIFE!! I am so happy to have worked that hard. A shower never felt that good and that absolutely painful from all the cuts and wounds. lol. Food never tasted so wonderful. A simple kiss never felt sooo good. I have not been so happy to see kids all alive and able to annoy the piss out of me. I am cut up from head to toe and a very painful shower later I am taking a moment to share. It just felt good to work. Plant flowers, clear shrub, cut trees, wield tools and slam glass after glass of water. I am so absolutely worn out and yet amazingly alive and so happy! I have that shakey leg feeling that one gets when having too much fun.
Do you know the feeling?
(The only thing I really feel bad for is my honey and the kiddos are all sick now and the sneezing and coughing and sniffing and such has moved on down the line. I did stock up on medicine and know exactly what feels bad and good on the aches and pains they are going through now. Hopefullly we can get them all feeling better.)
Now back to class in the morning. Tonight I sleep like a princess. Ok, a princess with a lot of Neosporin all over her.
I am so glad all the babies are safe.