My mind won't shut off !

by Maddie 28 Replies latest jw friends

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  jwfacts

  I went through the same thing. I wrote a book (all the info at jwfacts.com) as that way at least I got it out and did not have to go over the same topics endlessly.

  After that I still had problems so went to a cognitive behavioural therapist. That involved writing down the thought going through your mind, how it made you feel, and then writing about 8 other positive ways to think of the situation. That really helped, though I admit I still constantly have JW thoughts racing through my head 2 years later, just now I can control them and not get upset over it.
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  flipper

  Maddie, it's good that you are going to the doctor tomorrow. Sorry you have been having such a tough time but it's understandable with what you are dealing with. Please take care of yourself, so much stress can become depression which can be helped. Counseling helped me a great deal in my life. I hope things go well with your family. Makes me sick what the Watchtower does to families. We are here for you. Mrs Flipper Hello Maddie, Mr. Flipper here. Want you to know first of all my wife and I care very much. Have been there done that. I was raised in the org. got out after 44 years , 4 years ago. I feel your pain. My son got out also, he is 22, doin great. But my 2 daughters won't talk with me though, 20 and 19, still witnesses. If you ever want to personal mail us , please feel free. You are among friends here who care, all been there. We will always be here for you my friend. Take care of yourself, get rest, and hope your doctor's visit goes well. Remember , we are your friends, all the people on this board will show caring for you and empathy. Peace to you, Mr. Flipper
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  purplesofa

  I suggest reading

  The Power of NOW by ekhartt tolle

  he teaches you how to be in the now and turn off some of that mind thinking that goes on.

  helped me hugely when leaving the organization with all that turmoil going on...........which i called the unwinding.

  purps
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  REBORNAGAIN

  Hey Maddie!

  Don't know how old you are, but I have been getting up at 3:30 every morning for the past 3 years. Sometimes I wake up and 3 and figure, "Hey...if I'm already awake, I may as well get up". I do go to bed usually by 9pm and the ca. 6-6.5 hrs. is enough for me. I'm fit all day long. Btw, I'm 51derful. Maybe your body clock is changing?????

  Hang in there with your problems in life. They will get better. But try to do what you feel is right. Don't always listen to others if you don't approve of their opinions 100%. Your gut feelings, says alot.

  LINDA
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  dedpoet

  Purps wrote

  I suggest reading

  The Power of NOW by ekhartt tolle

  That would be my suggestion as well - excellent read. Also, the
  True Believer by Eric Hoffer is a good read.

  Whatever you do, Maddie, just remember that these feelings will pass
  in time, and that you will always have our support.

  Take care

  Trev
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  AK - Jeff

  When prisoners are released from some American prisons, the prison service sends a letter to the family telling them to expect that 'freedom' will create anxiety and difficulty for many who leave the prison confines.

  While in there, all thinking, planning, activity, choice of food, choice of friends, reading materials, etc, was controlled. Even walking down the aisles of a grocery store can be confusing and overwhelming at times for them.

  I do believe that many of the same difficulties face Jw's [or other former cult members] when they exit. That has been attested to here on JWD a million times over.

  Maddie - anything we can do to support you, just let us know.

  Jeff
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  lisavegas420

  It is scary when you really start thinking. You could go back to numbing your brain with endless WT crap, or try something new to give your mind a rest. A class, or a good book. Meditation is good but it takes time to clear your head when so much is going on. Plus, you could be perimenopausal. Good thing your going to the doctor.

  Just remember we're here, if you need a reality check.

  Take care of yourself.

  lisa
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  oompa

  Lvegas: you could be perimenopausal.

  Oh I hope that is my problem too! Maddie, I am on two years of mind racing and am probably wearing people out here at JWD by now. I hope just getting it out will help as I have not had an outlet. Booze sure helped, but of course only when you are bombed, and I dont do that anymore. Its like the reality can force you to sobriety. Meds could help. Definately sleep aids that dont leave you groggy in the morning such as Ambien. I keep hearing intense excersise is great for mind body and sleep, but it can be hard to get started if depressed.

  time is our ally.....oompa
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  lisavegas420

  Lvegas: you could be perimenopausal.

  Oh I hope that is my problem too!

  I don't think men become perimenopausal, they just make dumb mistakes without thinking it entirely though.

  lisa
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  mentalclearness

  Maddie, I'm not a doctor, mind you...but from the things you write and my own experience I'd say you're suffering from depression...Racing thoughts, insomnia, feelings of hopelessness for the future....Talk to your doctor very openly because it might be good to take some medication for a while. It's not miracle cure or anything.. But if you aren't sleeping as you should and not eating correctly, etc...your brain isn't going to function properly as well....you need to be able to make wise desicions right now and prepare yourself with the tools you'll need to overcome the things happening to you right now.....depression shuts you down, it doesn't allow you to function as you should....Whatever you decide to do I can tell you that things will get better. There are many here who have overcome some really hard experiences...I admire their strength tremendously and I'm sure you will also be able to also see the light at the end of the tunnel.....