Changeling,
In response to this--I was hesitant because of the "pray" part. I'm currently very anti-religion.
Religion is an awful man made thing to take people away from God. To teach them lies about God. I am also quite anti-religion.
However, don't confuse religion with God. God is not in religion. God wants you to come to him through Jesus, not through religion, without the lies that religion has brainwashed the world with. We all need to unreligion ourselves. Go to God in purity, like a child that has never been "taught" God. He truly does love you. Jesus dies for you. He made you clean and he takes all of your sins, every disgusting thing we do, and he takes them as if he has done them. He makes himself dirty so that you can be clean.
Don't let religion spoil your view of God. It's all lies. I ask you to go to God now, through Jesus and his love for you, and pray for faith. You can be mad while you do it, but try not to go in pride. Go to Him in desperation. Go to Him humbly, in truth. He will set you free.
