I am so glad to hear from each and everyone of you!! I am finally coming around to getting back to some of the things I used to love, grieving and healing and just adjusting to life after my sister was an adjustment . I have missed talking to others and I wonder how many new ones are leaving the WT and are in the same place I was a few years ago, just leaving WT.
I have thought of posting many times, just to tell new ones who are hurting, who are confused, about the whole JW thing, that life is wonderful, it is real and it is worth the pain that you feel at first when you decide to walk away from it all. You have to go thru the pain to get to where you want to be. But , it will not hurt forever. In this case I think time , does help heal.
My kids are well adjusted , the two younger ones, don't remember much about being a JW, and they are beautifully independant free thinkers. When they get mouthy with me , have purple or pink hair , saggin' pants etc. etc. I remember how I was never allowed to express myself and I smile, because they can.
My oldest son has more memories of JW , he was 15 or so when we left . He was able to play high school football, date a few girls before his steady one now, dances, all the fun country boy things they get to do on these red dirt roads. I am sure I only know about some of the stuff he has done!!!!! Now he is 20 and has settled down a bit , he is a rock to me when his Dad is working out of town.
I still have dreams of the JW days, I still miss the ones who will no longer speak to me . Sometimes when I dream of being at the KH , I realise that I no longer belong there, and I walk away ok with my decision. I used to dream that I wanted to go back, I would feel so lost and sad. Now those dreams are alot less and the lost feeling is gone. Some things in life, you live thru, you move on but there will always be saddness with these kinds of things. And I have just learned to live with that and to put it in perspective of all the good things I have now.
I hope to stay around a little bit , catch up on what everyone is up to, and I hope to reply back to each of you as I have time to get to my turn at the computer.