wingman,
I have empathy toward you. The situation in the organization has made you heartsick.
I personally loved your letter. I agree with all the points that you made. It was very well worded and expressed your thoughts succinctly. I have been in your shoes.
You still believe it is The Truth. The big questions you need to ask yourself is:
WHEN THE LIES ARE SO BIG, THEN HOW CAN IT BE THE "TRUTH?"
WHO ARE THE REAL "APOSTATES?"
This is a very tough question to answer! I know that you mean well and are trying to correct problems that have arisen. You think that you and others can make a difference in this campaign. I say go for it.
But be warned, the Watchtower Society will be Stalinesque in dealing with this uprising from within its ranks. You are much scarier to the Governing Body than those of us that have left. Draconian measures will be meted out to you and your associates if they ever find you. If your actions from inside the organization fail, you are welcome to join the rest of us that have left already.
I feel for you. I would say good luck but that would just freak you out.
JK